Three years ago, I set out on a personal (and totally unannounced) journey to be a happier person. Happiness was the end goal; that’s all I knew. I had no idea what it looked like – for me – and no idea how to get there.
I did know, however, what it didn’t look like and it was exactly where I was in that moment. I was more lost than ever, more confused than anyone else, and totally uncertain of just about everything in my life. So, I decided to implement change slowly over time; reworking the structure of my friendships, the ways in which I rely or turn to family, and centralized the focus entirely on myself. (In a consciously unselfish way, I think.) Like everything else, the work was incredibly hard in the beginning and I really struggled with disconnecting with some of the people; people that had been a part of my life for a long time and some people that for reasons unbeknownst to me, now, I really wanted as a part of my life. For whatever reason.
I’m still not where I want to be on an emotional level, and I strive to get stronger in the spirit of happiness everyday. But, I am more conscious of the end result than ever before and bare in mind through the day-to-day that this journey is a life-long one and there’s no shortcuts that’ll get me to the finish line.
It’s just me.